Tag: sobriety
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Happy ramblings
I’ve been quiet recently. It seems that the inspiration to write drains as my life gets bigger and happier. You’d think that creativity stemmed from excitement, but I guess it evolves from sadness. It is hard to write when I’m not sad. I am now nine months sober and completely in love with it. Sobriety…
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I hated Sundays
It is 7am on a Sunday and I am getting ready to run a half marathon. I am currently marathon training, something I never would have been able to do as a drinker. Not only did I weigh 20kg/44lbs more, but I felt sluggish and sapped of energy most of the time. If I was…
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Sober New Year
My New year’s Eve for the last 11 years. Spot the difference. 2011: The clock struck midnight, I had a massive drunken fight with my boyfriend of the time, punched a hole through a canvas painting I’d just given him for Christmas and then cried the whole way home. 2012: Got exceptionally drunk, had a…
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Dating sober
I thought I’d share some sober dating stories from the dreaded “telling them you don’t drink” perspective… To give context, I finally exited from my long-term, unhealthy relationship in September this year. I started dating after a couple of months. This is the first time I’ve ever dated, having been a serial monogamist for most…
Soberfying
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Dating without drink
I’ve been contemplating dating again. It will be first time I’ve dated sober. In the past, a standard date was a drink in the pub, usually followed up with drunken sex and a morning after of half remembered embarrassment. I’ve slept with people I don’t like, whose names I don’t know, and who don’t deserve…
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Falling off the sober high
Having a wobble today. And whilst I don’t feel like I’m at risk of drinking, I feel totally on edge. It has been 4 weeks since my break up with my ex-partner. I was told yesterday that he’s already starting sleeping with someone else. I desperately want not to care. I’ve coped so well with…
Soberfying
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Sober October 🎃
Apparently it’s sober October! It made me think that this is the first October I’ve been sober since being a child. Each month is the first for me at the moment, as I’m crawling towards 6 months. The first Halloween I won’t be scary drunk, the first autumn I won’t be mulled wine miserable, the…
Soberfying
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Counting sober days
When I started this sobriety journey, I was counting the days. Counting the days since my last drink. I used an app called I am Sober and I would check it every day, sometimes multiple times a day. Pledging in the morning, reviewing in the evening and just making sure those numbers were correct every…
Soberfying
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Drunk symptoms
There’s nothing quite like spending the evening with a bunch of drunks to reaffirm your sobriety. Tonight I spent the evening with my good friend, and his two friends. All three were fairly drunk by the time I arrived, nosecco in hand. In the few hours I was there I heard the same stories on…
Soberfying
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I am addicted to sobriety
It is all I talk about, all I think about, all I read about. I am obsessed with my new found sobriety. I am pouring with endless energy, motivation, excitement and joy. Emotions that were previously dimmed by drinking. I feel like I am high on sobriety. I realise that this is my unique experience,…
Soberfying
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100 days sober
100 days ago, I woke up in a semi-hungover state, tired, grouchy, with a light spattering of memory loss from the night before and some embarrassment from passing out on the sofa (whilst playing mario kart of all things). This was not the “hangover from hell”. This was not a “I feel like I’m gonna…
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Sober festivals
I am a lover of festivals. I have loved the crazy production of Boomtown, the grotty field living at Nass, the big names at Reading, the airfield at Let It Roll, the atmosphere at Rampage and so on. I’ve been going to festivals every year since I was 16 years old. And every festival has…
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Pride 🏳️🌈
Today I celebrate 12 weeks sober, in addition to the fabulous celebrations all around the city for Pride weekend. I’ve attended a few Prides now, each one just as messy as the others. Traditionally, we started drinking around 11am when the parade first makes its way through the rainbow donned streets. Pride 2019, I was…
Soberfying
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Celebrating the final drink
Admitting I have a problem with drinking was the catalyst I needed to stop. At New Year, I made my annual resolution to cut down alcohol (I’ve been making the same new year’s resolution for ten years). This year, it appeared successful. I only drank on weekends, and mostly only once a week. This was…
Soberfying
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Running away from alcohol
“But isn’t it all the exercise that’s making you so health, not the not drinking?” – a friend. I have developed a thirst for exercise. When I haven’t run for a few days I can feel it bubble up inside. I crave exercise. It is very common for alco-quitters, to swap to other habits. Eating…
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Holidays and sobering thoughts
Holidays sober. A foreign thought. Holidays are the epitome of drinking. Pint in the airport, miniatures on the plane, cocktails on the beach, wine by the pool, boozing through the day, continuing through the night, waking to the hair of the dog and carrying on for 7 days and nights until you need a holiday…
Soberfying
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The nothingness phase
I am not going to write a fake post about how hard I am finding this. Even though I know that stories of struggle attract more readers. When I asked a sober-curious friend about books about soberfying, she actually said, “I just enjoy reading other peoples dreadful booze stories and how they got sober”. And…
Soberfying
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If I had drunk
So this last week has been hard. The desire to drink has been strong, the booze gremlin residing in my head has been chattering away louder than usual. However, I am pleased to be able to write that I have not drunk. And sitting here on this absolutely stunning, summer’s day, I’m thinking about how…
Soberfying
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Hold onto the Sunday mornings
I wrote yesterday about how I am struggling with the sobriety. Although, it isn’t the sobriety I’m struggling with…that is amazing. The new energy, the better sleep, better skin, being fitter and stronger and less anxiety. No, not the sobriety I’m struggling with. Its the remaining sober. It’s the debating against that wicked voice in…